A note from my friend and spankee –
The awakening of a spanking enthusiast: what happened and what it’s like today.
Spanko seeds germinated throughout my childhood beginning with an infatuation with my bottom blossoming to imagining my bottom being spanked. In the late 40s through the 50’s, the bottom was hidden and not easily seen so it was a whispered mystery, whisperings accompanied with giggles and mischievous quiet laughter. As a child, my bottom was well covered and only bared for bathing and changing clothes. Such a “private” area.
Along with this bottom infatuation occurred awakening events of: witnessing a spanking, spanking in newspaper comic strips and movie cartoons and losing a wrestling match with the older girl across the street.
The witnessing: As a first grader in 1952 in a Texas Elementary school, I witnessed a second grade boy receiving three swats. I was in the hall outside my classroom coming back from the lavatory when the door to the classroom across the hall opened and a boy was brought out by his teacher. She quietly bent him over so his hands rested on his knees and proceed to give him three spanks with a small paddle. I so vividly remember he and I having eye contact as the spanks were delivered. He didn’t cry as I doubt they hurt very much but I will always see his face. It was a mixture of anguish and humiliation probably both from the spanking and the fact it was being witnessed by me even though I didn’t know him. When it was over his teacher looked across at me and for a moment I thought I was next. I remember feeling fluttery.
Spanking in comics strips: About this same time I became aware of spankings in the Sunday newspaper comic strips. So many, such as Dot, Li’l Abner, Katzenjammer Kids, Dennis the Menace, and on and on. I couldn’t wait for Sundays. I would get up early to get the comics. Hardly a Sunday passed without some character being spanked. Seeing them gave me a giggly melting sensation.
Movie cartoons: In the early 50s Saturday afternoon at the movie theater was a happening never to be missed. Here I started seeing spanking cartoons featuring spanking machines and cartoon animal children being spanked. While all the other kids laughed, I felt breathless.
The Wrestling match: When I was 10, the neighbor girl across the street, who was 14, challenged me to a wrestling match. I lost when she got me into a schoolgirl pin. She insisted her prize was to give me a spanking in the basement of her house. She promised it to be a secret so I agreed. The spanking was over her knee, my pants pulled down but underpants remained. It was a long and hard spanking and almost brought tears, but thrilling nonetheless.
I know these germinating events gave rise to, or informed, my innate spanking core today. What they all have in common is the imagining and experiencing spanking as a surrender to a strong but relentless spanker. None of these spankings were triggered by cruelty or out of control anger but more of a firm dedication to delivering a meaningful spanking.
Today, it isn’t “Why spanking,” but more a “Why Not?” It isn’t about making up a reason that requires a spanking (punishment, accountability, therapy, etc). It’s simply about the intimacy of the spanking. It’s the intimacy of being under the utter command of another. The pain inflicted on my bottom becomes immersed with the intimacy of the surrender. It’s the knowing that my surrender feeds my spanker’s sense of intimacy, of an intimate connection. The spanking is a flow of intimacy between spanker and spankee that bubbles up from utter trust. I utterly trust my spanker to take me to an edge and then pull back again and again. My spanker trusts me to unconditionally let her control the flow of the spanking without any need of role play, safe words, etc. This allows her to be fully engaged in the flow, experiencing her own emotional rush undistracted by my crying out and squirming around. My spanker knows that the pain feeds the trust which feeds the intimacy and around and around. This intimacy is a dance. – Rand
Feel free to share your own spanking awakening in the comments below!
Smiles and Spanks, NaturallyGin.com